You Know What I Want To Do?

I want to make things, and sell them. I want my own business... Maybe I just want to be in CHARGE of something?? I don't know, I just like being in the loop.

I have always wanted to own some sort of store.

When I was young, it was a pet store. More recently, craft stores... And then my own Photography Business. I want it all. But sometimes, and usually... I get on these little fads. And they don't last long...

Like, the photography thing. I can be REALLY good at it... but what is holding me back? There are things holding me back, and I don't know what it is. My lack of professional knowledge? My lack of confidence? SOMETHING. --- Anyway, I stopped taking photos with my DSLR when we got here to Germany... And I want to take more... But I don't at the same time (I think my brain is fighting some battles with itself...).

It seems like it was a fad.

And now... I am pretty into sewing... HOWEVER, I can't like, buy... ANYTHING here in Germany. I take that back, I CAN buy things here... but it just costs an arm, a leg, and an I.O.U. of my non-existent first born child...

And that is just, a huge downer.

I need like, a life coach or something. Someone to help me figure out what the hell I want to do with my life. Cause I know, I want to do SOMETHING. Something creative. This will be something I ask my Therapist about ... Definitely.

I kind of feel like I am at a point in my life where I am not sure what I am supposed to be doing. I mean, I am working on the dog park, and now I am my FRG's Treasurer, and that's fine and dandy. But I don't feel like that is enough. I really love not having to work, but I miss it at the same time.

Military Spouses, and Stay-at-home Wives/Moms... Have you ever felt this way? What did you do to overcome it?



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4 comments:

  1. I think I know what you mean...I'm trying to find a new niche for myself now that I'm not working. My husband just got me a new sewing machine in the hopes that it will be a new outlet for me, something I desperately need. What new sewing projects are you working on? :D

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  2. I may not be a stay-at-home Mom, but I do know how you feel. Chris has worked nights ever since we got married. When I got home from work every day, I sat around the house with nothing to do, and I pretty much went crazy. LOL. I started sewing to pass the time, and eventually started selling my wallets. Sure it was stressful sometimes, but I loved it!!! It feels so good to have someone buy one of your products. It does take a little bit of money to get started, but once you sell a couple things, you can use that money to buy more supplies. I recommend using Etsy. It's a great community. I invested about $50 to buy my supplies, and then any money I make goes straight into my PayPal account, and I pay for supplies using the same PayPal account. This way none of our regular income gets used. You will stumble along the way, but it gets easier. I say go for it!!!

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  3. I'm new to the military spouse world. I'm used to working but now I'm in a new place and, although I'm busy ALL the time, I feel so useless not having a job. Luckily I've had the opportunity to start cleaning a few homes, but I still feel guilty when spending money sometimes or when I sit on my bottom at home because I feel like I'm worthless. I guess I just need to get used to my husband having a job for "our" money?

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  4. I am completely totally at this same point. Trying to save up money for school, was hoping to start in January but we're broke. :( I'm going in for fashion design and merchandising and opening my own boutique. I'm excited and nervous and panicky and... bored in the meantime. I've never felt so motivated and so lethargic all at once.

    Ugh. And I get the materials/shipping cost. Shipping fabric toHawaii costs a pretty penny, and pretty much all the fabric stores have here is *shudders* "aloha print". Blehhh.

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