- October 31, 2011
You Know What I Want To Do?
I want to make things, and sell them. I want my own business... Maybe I just want to be in CHARGE of something?? I don't know, I just like being in the loop.
I have always wanted to own some sort of store.
When I was young, it was a pet store. More recently, craft stores... And then my own Photography Business. I want it all. But sometimes, and usually... I get on these little fads. And they don't last long...
Like, the photography thing. I can be REALLY good at it... but what is holding me back? There are things holding me back, and I don't know what it is. My lack of professional knowledge? My lack of confidence? SOMETHING. --- Anyway, I stopped taking photos with my DSLR when we got here to Germany... And I want to take more... But I don't at the same time (I think my brain is fighting some battles with itself...).
It seems like it was a fad.
And now... I am pretty into sewing... HOWEVER, I can't like, buy... ANYTHING here in Germany. I take that back, I CAN buy things here... but it just costs an arm, a leg, and an I.O.U. of my non-existent first born child...
And that is just, a huge downer.
I need like, a life coach or something. Someone to help me figure out what the hell I want to do with my life. Cause I know, I want to do SOMETHING. Something creative. This will be something I ask my Therapist about ... Definitely.
I kind of feel like I am at a point in my life where I am not sure what I am supposed to be doing. I mean, I am working on the dog park, and now I am my FRG's Treasurer, and that's fine and dandy. But I don't feel like that is enough. I really love not having to work, but I miss it at the same time.
Military Spouses, and Stay-at-home Wives/Moms... Have you ever felt this way? What did you do to overcome it?